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[26 Jun 2009|10:02pm] I am heartbroken. R.I.P Michael Jackson. don't even try and say he wasn't amazing. if it wasn't for him you wouldn't have half of the artists you do. King of Pop, you will be greatly missed, but never, ever forgotten <3 Let go

you count the minutes, I'll count the miles... [08 May 2009|08:59am] I've got my things, I'm good to go You met me at the terminal Just one more plane ride and it's done We stood like statues at the gate Vacation's come and gone too late There's so much sun where I'm from I had to give it away, had to give you away And we spent four days on an Island at your family's old hotel Sometimes perfection can be, It can be perfect hell, perfect... Hours pass, and she still counts the minutes that I am not there, I swear I didn't mean for it to feel like this, Like every inch of me is bruised... And don't fly fast. Oh, pilot can you help me? Can you make this last? This plane is all I got So keep it steady, now Cause every inch you see is bruised I lace my Chucks, I walk the aisle I take my pills, the babies cry All I hear is what's playing through The in-flight radio Now every word of every song I ever heard that made me wanna stay Is what's playing through The in-flight radio And I am, finally waking up Hours pass, and she still counts the minutes That I am not there, I swear I didn't mean for it to feel like this Like every inch of me is bruised, bruised Don't fly fast. Oh, pilot can you help me? Can you make this last? This plane is all I got So keep it steady, now Cause every inch you see is bruised, yeah So read your books, but stay out late Some nights, some nights... and don't think that you can't stop by the bar You haven't shown your face here since the bad news Well I'm here till close, with fingers crossed Each night cause your place isn't far... And hours pass, and hours pass, yeah, yeah... Yeah, yeah, she still counts the minutes That I am not there, I swear I didn't mean for it to feel like this Like every inch of me is bruised, bruised And don't fly fast. Oh, pilot can you help me? Can you make this last? This plane is all I got So keep it steady, now Cause every inch you see is bruised, bruised, bruised Let go

[14 Mar 2009|07:46pm] [ mood | depressed ] my boyfriend and I broke up a few nights ago. I'm basically completely unstable right now. my heart hurts so bad that I don't even know what to do anymore. I spent 2 days back to back just drinking myself stupid. I'm fully aware of how immature and stupid it was, but really, I just didn't want to feel anymore. I will honestly, 100% say I've never felt the way I do right now. we're going to remain friends, cause we were best friends before anything and there's nothing more painful than losing your partner, then losing your best friend at the same time. 2 Forgive what we can't forget * Let go

[01 Mar 2009|01:02pm] I found out on thursday, that casey and I's apt finally got subleased, only to find out they wanted it for march 1st aka sunday. so, without having a new apt, straight after work I went and saw one, the next morning before work I applied and signed the lease, the following day my superman of a boyfriend and I moved all my shit in under 4.5 hours and I then spent the first night in my new apt. I'd love to say that I was this big girl and spent the first night alone, but I definitely made my boyfriend spend the night cause of all the creepy noises I heard. needless to say, my apt is way too big for me and scooter and I love it. lincoln square is the cutest town and I'm glad I found something exactly where I wanted. and also after only 4 or 5 months I'm getting a promotion at work. I'm going to be an assistant manager at the gap flagship store on michigan ave. crazy! things have been good, like real good. money is the only thing I can complain about. I remember calling my boyfriend one night ranting about how things weren't fair. I was consistantly seeing bad people get great things and I just kept getting more stressful things. I couldn't grasp the concept that people who don't deserve good things, get them, and those that genuinely do, don't. I expressed that I felt that I was a pretty good person and couldn't understand why I couldn't ever catch a break. I just remember him saying "baby, their's won't last and even if it does, you know what? you're gonna get your break, and when you do, its going to be 10 times bigger...I promise you." so after this past week when everything was getting stressful he kept me calm, and then when things went the right way, his first reaction was "hey, remember when I told you you'd get your break? BOOM." either way, he was right. he usually always is. I've recently found out that as stressful as life gets, as long as you have that positive support right there next to you, its never, ever as bad as it would be alone. moral of the post: I moved and things are good. xoxo. 2 Forgive what we can't forget * Let go

[05 Feb 2009|01:01pm] you can't trust a heart that was cold from the start. Let go

[31 Dec 2008|04:27pm] I'm not going to make the ever most common "top 5" or "new years resolutions" update. at least not now. or here, but anyway, I just wanted to say that I'm going to see my best friend in california in less than a month. yeah, for christmas my boyfriend and best friend bought me a plane ticket to california cause I have been severely down in the dumps missing her these past few months. so basically, what I'm saying is I'm really excited and my boyfriend is really awesome. yeah, I know, getting all sappy and whatnot, but he's good to me, even though we get in fights...he's pretty okay in my book. Let go

quick update [07 Nov 2008|11:21am] [ music | news ] few things to keep you current: 1. quit my job at express and now work at banana republic as a supervisor, and its extremely different. and I stress extremely. but in a more professional manner. not to mention, I'm probably the youngest person in the store all the way down to the associates. yikes. 2. obama got elected and I couldn't be more stoked. I wasn't able to vote due to not knowing if I could or where I was originally registered, etc etc. don't get on my case about it, it was a mess. anyhow, change is going to happen. see ya later bush, suck a fatty. 3. my best friend asked me to be his gf and I accepted. I couldn't be happier about the situation and he's been nothing but great even before any of this. (well, give or take a few things here and there, but ya know...) right now is the "honeymoon" stage (aka the cheesy stage) and the wanting to hangout every day, but with our schedules conflicting so badly, its making it harder. the other night right as we were falling asleep he real quietly went "liz...I'm really happy you're my gf." major brownie points, obviously. and yes, he's a total cheeseball and knows I hate it, but sometimes its cute. needless to say we're happy and comfortable all at the same time. its nice. 4. casey and I are trying to sublease are apt right now and move out into a new one. there's been a lot of drama revolving it, but were hoping to resolve it completely and just figure things out. its been a mess and more stressful than I'd like to admit. 5. I was on vacation for a week and it was wonderful, spent a lot of time at home and with friends. made new ones and had a ton of sleepovers. definitely needed and made my life seem so much less of a hassle. anyhow- that's it I HAVE to go shower otherwise I'm gonna be late for work. actually, there's a good chance I'll be late no matter what. woof! xoxo. 6 Forgive what we can't forget * Let go

I disconnect my heart, my head.... [11 Oct 2008|10:51am] I woke up this morning feeling so nauseous and unable to open my eyes. I couldn't tell if it was from all the alcohol I drank last night or that I had been so sad that my stomach was literally turning inside and out. and maybe all the mascara that was...dampened? (is that even a word?) glued my eyelashes together. either way I'm sure they all played their part. have you ever felt like youve always been trying when everyone else never is? or maybe its just that no one has to. I'd love to say I'm not one for complaining, but this past year, its become second nature to me. I'd give anything to go back to 2 years ago when I was legitamitly happy. its like my mom said, "you've always been too happy for that" I wish that would still hold true. I don't know where along these lines I became really fucking weak and allow things to get to me like they do. hiding between cars and crying in parking lots is not who I am nor who I want to be. last night I lost the one escape I had. the one that made me not worry about a single thing. I mean, the person is there but that outlet is gone. if that makes any sense at all. its just really fucking hard to realize that if shit gets rough, you're stuck. there's no better wording for it then stuck. who the fuck wants to be stuck? having to pull yourself out of one of the only things that seemed okay at the time and with knowing its a lot easier for them then you, fucking sucks. rewind to, "have you ever felt like youve always been trying when everyone else never is". don't get me wrong, the reasoning and the doubts and the thought process makes sense. I've heard them before, but it makes sense. we've always been taught to fight for things you want, but how long does the battle go on until you realize some things you want...might not be what they want or what you need? after awhile you just feel like you're talking just to hear yourself talk. talk is cheap when the one who was listening, stops. god, I'm so tired of talking. Let go

[30 Sep 2008|10:25am] I rarely come to lj anymore, but when I do I usually try to backtrack my friends page and get semi-caught up. as I was just doing that I came to the realization that some people really just let it all out. so detailed, for everyone to see. I mean, at first I was like damn, really, sill? but then I realized that if those people didn't write juicy detailed entries, I'd never be reading my friends page good job, man. keep it up. Let go

[17 Jul 2008|04:31pm] no matter what taste of music everyone has, no matter how awesome or shitty it may be, there's always that one band or that one cd that will always have some sort of huge impact on someone. that one cd that puts you in the best mood or gets you out of the worst. the one that hits closer to home than you could probably write yourself. 'Everything In Transit' will always be that cd to me. always. it is my spring, summer, fall and winter soundtrack, year in and year out. it's been 3 years now, and has never left my headphones and it doesn't plan to. if I ever really decided to leave chicago, it would only be to california, because when I'm there I feel like I'm trapped in a jm music video, which is a pretty okay and content feeling to me. *11:11 - some people get it. some people don't. i only want to surround myself with those who do. www.myspace.com/jacksmannequin 2 Forgive what we can't forget * Let go

[02 Jul 2008|02:02pm] [ mood | depressed ] in this past weekend I've gotten mugged by drag queens, lost all my money, ids, cards, phone, and all together comfort in walking in my own city. took a trip to michigan just to waste 6 hours of my time because I missed the band I went to see. crashed my uhaul 2 days later, which resulted in the biggest anxiety attack I've ever had, on some random front porch. and now, chase bank has still not returned my money. I mean, it's only been a week and realistically who really needs money to live off? apparently none of the chase staff does. as many times as I've said, it can't get any worse....it always manages to. lets see what's next. 1 Forgive what we can't forget * Let go

one thing that's been the topic of my thoughts as of lately: [12 Jun 2008|06:07pm] [ mood | disappointed ] how can someone have such an effect on a person? with a drop of a hat best friends become just friends, soon enough ex-friends. people were born with a mind of their own for a reason. meaning, start thinking for yourself and stop letting someone tell you how to run your life. I've given up hope on every genuine person I've ever met. over (it) and out. literally. 1 Forgive what we can't forget * Let go

taking a break from myself for a change... [06 Jun 2008|06:55am] [ mood | hot ] I really want Obama to win the presidential elections. I just hope our society is ready for that big of a change. actually, I know our society is ready for it, I just hope the elderly can adjust to it and in a positive manner, at that. 2 Forgive what we can't forget * Let go

[18 Mar 2008|11:24pm] [ mood | tired ] "enjoy it while it lasts, sister" it's always unexpected and always comes back around to kick you in your ass. so whenever you feel in control just remember that. Let go

these currents are still killing me. [28 Feb 2008|10:26pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | something corporate ] I haven't updated this thing in forever. I still check my friends page though so I can keep up with the people that actually still utilize this thing. anyway- lifes been up and down, and down some more. this is all I've got for you: -work is okay. just okay. could be worse. could be better. I'm content. -friends are indifferent. growing apart and growing together. I have an optimistic outlook on things and think some things that happen may have a positive effect in the end. -being 21 is in full effect. I've been raging like no other. it's been a lot of. the lack of sleep tends to get a little exhausting, but hey I'm young- I'll sleep when I'm dead. -boys are drama, lots and lots of drama. I'm okay with where I'm at right now or where I will be. I have a lot of things to figure out and I've had too many interferences before I've been able to come up with a conclusion. -ive been making a lot of mistakes lately, but really, the only way anything really sinks is by learning from a specific point in time and I am. -scooter's still my favorite thing in the world. he's been mad at me a lot recently, due to me never sleeping at home these days, but he gets over it quickly. -i had my sidekick stolen, had to spend $457 on a new one. which trust me, I'm already more broke than ever so that was not pleasant in the least. okay that's basically all I've got. oh yeah and I'm going to see kanye and rihanna in may. siiiick. 2 Forgive what we can't forget * Let go

[01 Feb 2008|02:43pm] more times than not- it's better sleeping next to someone, rather than sleeping with. Let go

[01 Jan 2008|10:06am] here's to hoping 2008 doesn't screw me over as much as 2007 did. 1 Forgive what we can't forget * Let go

[16 Dec 2007|03:02am] someone please buy me a chipmunk for my birthday. please. 3 Forgive what we can't forget * Let go

mike told me to update this. [27 Nov 2007|11:58pm] [ mood | tired ] this past weekend I had my friend's band from canada stay with me for 2 nights. they were probably some of the best dudes I have hung out with in god knows how long. it was a nice release from a stressful few weeks and a good get-away from everyone and everything going on here. they brought me nice sanity for 2 and a half days and I really wish they would just come back already. They told me last night that they're coming back feburary 8th, and it was the highlight of my day until 10 minutes later my sister said we had to go to san diego for my brothers marines bootcamp graduation. so now they're doing everything they can to switch it and I really hope they do. they make me want to move to canada. whatdya say, eh? okay, maybe not MOVE there, but maybe go visit...on the regular. besides that nothing exciting is going on at all. still sleeping like 11 hour days and still being exhausted. I have no energy and it sucks. oh, I turn 21 in less than 3 weeks. ridiculous. all I've been listening to lately is as tall as lions and jimmy eat world. so, so good. 757 apt is looking very festive for christmas. I love the lights, and I love the holiday. I'm probably the only person who gets excited about the snow. ha. emily is part psycho and mike needs to make an appearance in my life more often again. that's all, I'm tired. go figure. there's something wrong with the fact that I'm depressed I can't sleep for 12 hours again. goodnight. xoxo. p.s. here's the new hipblog: http://www.poweredbydanger.com/community/userblogs/3308 Let go

ha. [22 Oct 2007|08:08pm] [ mood | realistic ] baby seasons change, but people don't. 8 Forgive what we can't forget * Let go

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